Thoughts

It's been one of those crazy bipolar weeks...

I lost my debit card

Im sick with the common coldie 

Im super excited about something in the works...( Just wait)

Actually got to laundry

School is going great

School is HARD..balancing 16 credits, multiple clubs, future, job, life..

I legit have a stalker that I had to tell the teacher on because he wouldn't leave me alone ( In college..)

Im wearing super cool Fox fuzzy socks right now

I ate a donut every day but Tuesday and Thursday...I bought a donut for my nanny kid Friday and he didn't finish so I had to eat it.....

I found out that I have a Vertebra in my back that keeps going out of place

In-N-Out fries all over my car+christmas air freshener makes your car smell like thrown up dog food( Not my fault) 

Anddddd I winged my fhe lesson and it went great!

The other day I was walking into my medical law class with a bad attitude thinking about the things I needed to get done and thinking about typical life probs like money, future plans, why am I here in the cold and not at byu hawaii...the usual.. I entered the classroom just so ready to get my last class over with and thought that it would be just another one of those boring days..Medical Law is way cool don't get me wrong but just wasn't in the mood to talk about lawsuits and sad stories. So as I sat down we began the role call and then always have a spiritual thought to start. The spiritual thought was about overcoming trials and being grateful no matter the circumstances. After the spiritual thought video people kept raising their hands and telling their stories. My teacher bagged the entire lesson and we literally made the class into a discussion about life trials..People were bouncing off one another commenting and giving advice and going into depth on their life struggles..I heard about divorce, people being the only lds member in their family, how it was having two moms, leaving their countries, addictions, family in the hospital, loss of loved ones.. And I just sat there and listened..I thought, " HOLY SMOKES..What can I say to these people? Do I have these experiences?" In a way it surprised me that I couldn't think of a struggle like theirs..But that surprise just turned into just pure gratitude that I did not know how it felt to be in those situations. I felt terrible even..I just sat there and though, " I am literally the only one who hasn't raised their hand with a crazy life story or trial..How AM I so lucky.. I don't feel like I deserve to be this lucky when these people struggle so much." I walked out of class talking to my friend and just said, " I literally feel like crying..How am I so lucky." God truly does work in mysterious ways! I sure was needing a little reminder to stop thinking of my own struggles and realize that someone always has it worse and that we should remember to be grateful. So that helped inspire me on what to talk about for my families fhe lesson today. I don't know how I got roped into sharing a lesson..Literally my dad just said, " You got the lesson good luck." I was completely blank all week but then decided to talk about gratitude..Pretty appropriate for this season anyways. I began by telling my experience of listening to all of these people, read something my dear cousin Evie sent to me about being grateful, and then asked for people to participate in sharing what they are grateful for or a story. I love open discussions because I feel like people learn more in that setting from bouncing off one anothers stories and thoughts. They shared such sweet stories. My grandparents got emotional talking about our family tree and how unique we were that we have not had a single person leave the church or any crazies in the family..They also told us grandkids to not screw that up hahaha... But I fully agreed with them and again thought, " Seriously how was I so lucky to be born in the gospel and to this family?" I am grateful for the first people in our family tree to open the doors to the missionaries...It truly does go a long way as you can see! I saw this quote once that said, " It is not happy people that are grateful, it is grateful people who are happy." That is 100% TRUE! As I have thought about the things I am grateful for instead of focusing on the negative I am so much happier. I was also thinking about something my dad told me tonight. He said," What if you woke up the next morning with only the things that you had prayed and thanked God for yesterday.." I thought about what I would pray for...Air, water, clothes, sun, the list goes on...and on..and on...Shows you that things that are usually just forgotten are actually a HUGE blessing and things that we should be thankful for every day. 

I am so thankful for my family, the gospel, education, friends that spill fries in my car, fuzzy socks, washing machines so that I don't have to do laundry by hand, still trying to figure out about the back vertebra..Grateful for doctors to find that stuff? Anddd grateful for DONUTS OF COURSE...Haha but seriously..

-Ash